50

50
By Michael A Gelb

On April 7th we had a small wedding
It was a life with you I was getting

50 years ago you became my wife
I said I do for the rest of my life

In all our years I never cried
I do it now since you died

At night is the loneliness
All the time is the emptiness

I wanted to get a new engagement ring for you
Maybe even repeat the words, I do

The guilt I felt because of no goodbye
At the same time I also wanted to die

I loved you so many years of my life
I will always love you as my wife

I’m still finding things hard to do
These were easy things for you

Until again it’s you and me
Happy 50th anniversary

Forever

Forever
By Michael A Gelb

My mind knows how long my wife’s been away
In my heart it feels like just a day

The meaning of closure to me
Is closing the door behind my wife and me

At night when I go to bed
I have thoughts in my head

If after I turn off the light
I should pass during the night

If I should pass during the day
The same words I would say

I wish it’s my wife that I see
Looking at me

I’ll be happy and calm
When she takes me by the arm

We’ll go off together
This time it will be forever

Friends

Friends
By Michael A Gelb

When we come to a meeting
We are welcomed with a warm greeting

We come together because of a loss and pain
At our meetings, always something to gain

We try to help a friend
With hope and talks right to the end

This is a place you may see tears
We all have those fears

Where here to help our heart and our mind
All the people here are so kind

We talk about our loves, the good and bad
Sometimes we may get very sad

We listen to what someone would say
Someone may cry and that’s okay

One of our own had started a group, BSG
Bereavement Social Group come and see

Life is to live and then we die
It’s those in betweens that can make us cry

Dance on a Cloud

Dance on a cloud
By Michael A Gelb

My wife and I met in the city of New York
With touching of hands a kiss and some talk

After years of marriage and children she died
With no goodbyes I broke down and cried

Our wedding bands are no longer apart
Joined together they hang near my heart

My wife in heaven waits for me
I don’t know how long it will be

For as long as I’m earthly bound
I hope my wife’s spirit is around

Looking at the white clouds up above
I think of my wife who I love

Clouds look like spirits in the sky
Raindrops could be spirits that cry

To continue with romance
To hold her, love her and dance

To dance on a cloud in the sky
It’s now my dream for my wife and I

Christmas Eve

Christmas Eve
By Michael A Gelb

We would hide presents through the year
All around the house every where

That night we said, kids it’s time for bed
Let thoughts of Santa fill your head

I helped wrap gifts with my wife
To put happiness in our kids life

Under the tree went the gifts we had
Some from Santa, some from mom and dad

Christmas eve was such a joy
Putting together a bike or toy

I miss those Christmas eve nights
My wife, little kids and a tree with lights

For me now on December 24
Christmas eve it’s not the same anymore

My Old Boy

My Old Boy
By Michael A Gelb

I’ve written about a little dog that I had
But little Maggie was really bad

I had to return her, she was to much for me
All over the house she would poop and pee

So again it was just my old Bandit and me
His health getting worse even just to see

After I lost my wife
He helped me go on with my life

Then I had to face that tearful day
To put him down was so hard to say

I still look for him in his usual place
The rooms are empty I don’t see his face

More pain and more tears
It hasn’t stopped these past years

He gave me loyalty and love
Now he’s also in heaven above

Message to God

Message to God
By Michael A Gelb

Something I would like to ask
For you this would be a small task

My wife is in heaven with you
That’s something you already knew

Years ago when I met my wife
She’s been the everything in my life

And now that where apart
I wish to say something from my heart

Would you let her know
That we all miss her so

Would you give her all my love
Till you take me up above

Making Wishes

Making Wishes
By Michael A Gelb

I take a penny and toss it in the well
Then make a wish and I can’t tell

If I see a shooting star in the sky
I make a wish for my wife and I

If I have chicken with a wishbone
This would be for two, I live alone

No more candles on a birthday cake
No more wishes can I make

Making wishes that my wife could be
Together again with me

Time in a Bottle

Time in a bottle
By Michael A Gelb

If it were only possible to have bottled the past
To seal it so that time could last

My past had many good years
A family life I had no tears

And now to open that bottle in this part of my life
Instead of tears have more time with my wife

Peter Pan Envy

Peter Pan Envy
By Michael A Gelb

I envy Peter Pan
He never get’s old as a man

He can fly back and forth to never-never land
To his lost boys a merry band

If I had Tinkerbelle’s fairy dust and could fly
I would go up and up into the sky

I would fly up to my wife who’s in heaven
And take her back to nineteen fifty-seven

The fifties were a great time in life
It was when I met my future wife

What Some Men Can't See

What Some Men Can’t See
By Michael A Gelb

For years it’s been said that love is blind
Probably meant with men in mind

Women are different in many ways
With some men their in a daze

All women have inner beauty of their own
And most of the time that beauty is shown

Women are filled with loving care
Especially for children they love so dear

Some men can’t see beyond their nose
The love in the family that grows and grows

Gift of Light

Gift of Light
By Michael A Gelb

All the years with my wife
She was a light in my life

Driving home and around a bend
She was my light at journeys end

Some things I did start
Giving her something from my heart

During the day and into the night
I burn a candle to her, it’s a gift of light

That Girl

That Girl
By Michael A Gelb

That girl I loved from the start
She took over my heart

That girl was my lover
She was also my kids mother

That girl was my best friend
Right to the very end

That girl I love and adore
She is not here anymore

That girl was my wife
And will be for the rest of my life

Don't Cry For Me

Don’t Cry For Me
By Michael A Gelb

When the day comes and I die
Don’t be sad, don’t cry

I would say I had a good life
With children, grandchildren and a beautiful wife

At the end of this life
I’ll be back with my wife

All you kids I will miss
From you I’ll give mom a big kiss

Don’t cry, don’t grieve
I’ll be with your mother after I leave

Wedding Bands

Wedding Bands
By Michael A Gelb

I placed a ring on her left hand
A plain white gold wedding band

With all my love this ring is from me
I also wore a ring for people to see

Today the rings have become something more
They also tie us together for evermore

Mine is still on my left hand
From my neck hangs her wedding band

I feel her in my heart and in my life
I still think of her as my wife

Promises, Promises

Promises, Promises
By Michael A Gelb

A promise with saying I do
Back in the year nineteen sixty two
A promise of love to my wife
She is my love for all my life
A promise to love her forever
Will I love again, I think never

Keno Baby

Keno Baby
By Michael A Gelb

My wife and I liked to play keno
Just about every weekend we would go

She was pregnant and due any day
Over an hour’s ride each way

Other players would say
Your going to give birth today

We got home and went to bed
It’s that time my wife had said

Her water broke on the floor
Our first was born in nineteen sixty four

It was almost a maybe
That we had a keno baby

Play Ball (Softball)

Play Ball (Softball)
By Michael A Gelb

My daughters use to play softball
I wish I could have been to them all

Since my daughters don’t play anymore
I don’t have a team to cheer for

I do watch some games on the TV
The girls have lots of great energy

When the girls are in the dugout
You can hear them cheer and shout

You can hear them chant and scream
To win a world series starts as a dream

For one team to lose comes sorrow
And they may not have a game tomorrow

I’ve seen many girls being sad
I can’t recall any of them getting mad

Lots of girls playing softball
Good luck to them all

Angel of Mine

Angel of mine
By Michael A Gelb

I had written a poem called “Deaths Door”
My sleeping problem my wife did endure

From when I lost my spouse
It’s only the dog and I at the house

Before I go to bed I shut the light
Something happened to me one night

I felt a hand on my back waking me
Nobody but the dog here with and me

It could have been a night I lost my breath
An angel may have kept me from death

That angel must be my wife
Still watching over my life

She watched over me when she was alive
She must still be helping me to survive

My Memories

My Memories
By Michael A Gelb

I was thinking of buying a new house
So I’m here with my son and his spouse

Sitting outback looking up to the sky
Hoping to see something go bye

Wishing for a sign to see
Something from my wife to me

To move into an empty and cold house
I would leave behind memories of my spouse

I don’t want to leave those memories behind
More memories in the house then in my mind

When my kids were small
They would play and mark up a wall

I see memories on every wall
Where my wife painted over marks from a ball

A memory in every room
Some good some with a little gloom

It’s something that will always be
Even the gloom is a memory to me